ASSAY: A JOURNAL OF NONFICTION STUDIES
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Like tens of millions of Americans, I watched the towers fall that Tuesday morning from the safety of a television screen. Hours later, I walked around my New Jersey college campus, trying to reconcile the pristine azure sky with the smoke-drenched footage that marked the end of my adolescence. The contrast astonished me; it reverberated through my body. In the days and weeks that followed September 11, 2001, I worked as a Salvation Army volunteer, witnessing firsthand the monstrous wreck that the world called Ground Zero. I had no words for it. On commuter trains, I wrote poem after poem, trying to put on the page an event that was horrifying, extraordinary, and, as we now know, the most commonly shared media experience in history. It’s estimated that two billion people watched the attacks that day, either in real-time or on the news broadcasts that immediately followed (Graff). That’s more than three times the amount of people who, thirty-two years before, watched two Americans land on the moon.
September 11th was unique in its viewership, but also in the way that it was viewed: via livestream, and then, on loop, ad infinitum. Breaking news, of course, had been carried live before. I was born the same year as the 24-hour news cycle, and in my own childhood, I watched the fall of the Berlin Wall from my living room couch (age 9). I watched Baby Jessica being rescued from a well in Texas, from my bedroom (age 7). Millions of us tuned in, at work, home, and school, when what had been a normal, if delayed, space shuttle launch turned into the Challenger disaster (age 5). The images from those events, too, played on loop for days. Those moments, in context, required a more complex understanding of history than was available to me as a child. But even then, on some basic level, I understood what I was watching. That was not the case at age 21, in my dorm room. On that mid-September morning, fully grown and mostly educated, I had been lulled into the belief that what I was seeing was the aftermath of an accident—or at worst, in an isolated act of terror. At 9:03 a.m., the world was simultaneously disabused of that notion. The news anchors raced to catch up, and posed questions that writers would struggle with for decades. What did these images mean? How would we interpret them? In the days, weeks, and months that followed the attacks, it seemed there were an infinite number of interpretations of a singular day. In an interview, novelist Jess Walter said, “We all witnessed the same event, but we didn’t see the same thing” (“P.S. Insights, Interviews & More” 3). The breaking news of it all meant that as the networks raced to find eyewitnesses, those people came at the event from a different (literal) angle than the news helicopters, hovering in the air. On CBS, anchor Bryant Gumbel was interviewing Theresa Renaud, the wife of an Early Show producer, who called in from the Chelsea neighborhood of Manhattan. In the footage, Renaud is live on the air when the second plane crashes into the South Tower. But in the moment, the CBS viewers see no plane at all, only a fireball in the lower left of their screens. The camera is aimed too high. Renaud reacts, shouting, “Oh there's another one—another plane just hit—oh my god, another plane has just hit—it hit another building—flew right into the middle of it—explosions!" (Morales). Gumbel struggles, having not seen the same thing, but now watching the aftermath. He is almost incredulous: “You saw a plane?” The Gumbel reaction is an interesting metaphor for what was to come. The genre of 9/11 literature is born in this mismatch; the attacks upended a country, even a way of life. But the images that defined it made it difficult to speak about. The goal of 9/11 literature, and in particular, nonfiction, is to put the reader in the very body of the narrator: as eyewitness, spectator, survivor, and even victim. To make them feel what it was like to be there. But that begins with how to communicate.
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Amy Cook was a 2024 finalist for Tablet Magazine’s inaugural First Personal Essay Contest. Kenyon Review Writers Workshop (CNF, 2021). Her essays and poems have been featured in more than two dozen literary journals, magazines and anthologies, including Anti-Heroin Chic and the Los Angeles Review. She is an Editorial Assistant for the literary magazine, CRAFT. Rainier Writing Workshop (MFA pending, 2025).
Amy is an award-winning lyricist (BMI Lehman Engel Musical Theater Workshop, 2008 Harrington Award for Outstanding Creative Achievement) whose work has been heard at Broadway’s Minskoff Theatre (Easter Bonnet Competition, 2010), the Metropolitan Room and the Algonquin Salon. Her lyrics were most recently performed by the San Francisco Gay Men's Chorus. |