ASSAY: A JOURNAL OF NONFICTION STUDIES
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“What happens to the rat that stops running the maze?/The doctors think it’s dumb when it’s just disappointed”
—American Music Club: “Hollywood 4-5-92” The first time I decided to stop striving was in the immediate aftermath of September 11, 2001. At that time, I was enrolled in graduate school and working as a teaching assistant. A native New Yorker whose classes were populated primarily by students from New York, New Jersey, and Pennsylvania, I spent much of that week processing feelings of shock, uncertainty, and grief, either alone or with students, friends, and colleagues. Many of the people around me were asking simple yet devastating questions. What now? How will our lives change? I met such questions, at least inwardly, with a fatalistic answer: everything could vanish in an instant, so why expend energy on things that might not really matter in the long run? I no longer spent hours jotting down notes on my seminar readings and preparing elaborate lesson plans. My writing—usually done at a glacial pace due to the overwhelming perfectionist tendencies that characterized my entire education up to that point—slowed and then froze. Why prepare for the job market? Why chase after any kind of achievement or socially sanctioned success? The world could end.
Like the much celebrated (and mostly fabricated) post-9/11 moment of national unity and patriotism, my apathetic period was brief, and was replaced by its opposite. The public conversation in central Pennsylvania, where I lived at the time, reflected broader U.S. trends: citizens and elected officials fought about the so-called Global War on Terror; earnest, “life is short” conversations about prioritizing one’s personal values gave way to conversations about grit and resilience, about the all-American return to normalcy, ambition, action. Life had to go on, bills had to be paid, the ladder awaited its faithful climbers. I rallied. I had come this far and was almost done with my coursework. I wanted, as I always had, to excel. I wanted a fancy job at a fancy school, a title, a degree, a record of publications, a house, a family. Despite my fleeting inclinations, I was unable to sit and think and do nothing. I could not imagine any way to get through each day without the neoliberal patterns of thinking that had structured my life. Reflecting on 2001 in the context of 2025, I notice a similar pattern—striving and ambition reemerging after a period of detachment brought about by a different, wider-ranging crisis: the pandemic. Many U.S.-based writers described a pause in the usual action that went beyond quarantines and lockdowns and workplaces shuttering their offices in favor of remote work. Some addressed a desire to step away from monetarily and/or emotionally unsatisfying jobs. Others discovered or revisited interests and hobbies. Newspapers published stories about avid sourdough bread bakers and sidewalk chalk artists and long-distance hikers—and in the widespread circulation of such stories, that post-9/11 sense of detachment and reprioritization began to intensify and evolve. This essay is about that intensification and evolution as expressed in popular nonfiction books about leaving a job or career, experiencing burnout, reorganizing professional and personal priorities, and exploring the possibility of talking back to neoliberalism: an economic philosophy emphasizing individual productivity and responsibility that has come to permeate aspects of lived experience well beyond the workplace. These books—sometimes characterized as “Quit Lit” due to a shared emphasis on deprioritizing work in favor of other activities—encourage readers to reconfigure their value systems. Quit Lit urges readers to disentangle their sense of self from their career, with the word “career” broadly defined: some of the texts I will analyze here focus on corporate ladder-climbing, some on issues in academia/higher education, some on monetizing one’s personal interests, and some, even, on the ways that family life and leisure time have become yet more opportunities for the ambitious to pursue excellence. The Quit Lit call to action suggests, wrongly, that individual liberation from the neoliberal order is possible, and ignores, downplays, and sometimes even undercuts possibilities for collective action or systemic change, such as advocating for underpaid workers or fighting injustice in the workplace. As such, it reinforces a version of the usual neoliberal mentality: you are responsible only to yourself, and you must always be productive. Quitting is not an exit; indeed, there is no exit. The rat race may not always emphasize the usual striving for career advancement, but all the rats are still racing.
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Megan Brown is Professor of English and Director of Writing at Drake University, Des Moines, USA, where she teaches courses on nonfiction narrative, writing pedagogy, and contemporary U.S. literature/cultural studies. She is the author of The Cultural Work of Corporations (2009) as well as American Autobiography After 9/11 (2017).
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